Ben's Baptism

Today Ben got baptisted, i was really very excited for him about this new life in Jesus Christ.

For those friends who came, Ben and I really appreciate it, Thank You. I am not going to mention names as it can be quite sensitive.

One interesting thing about Chrisitanity --
It isn't about witnessing miracle, then believe in Jesus.
It is about having faith and believe in Jesus, that's when many miracles in your life will come.

A story from bible:
In a town, there was a wedding and the wine ran out. A woman told the servants to do anything Jesus said. (At that time, no one knew Jesus had power except the woman for Jesus had not perform any miracles yet) Jesus told the servants to fill the jars with water and serve the guest at the wedding. Without anyone knowing, Jesus turned the water into wine. The servants just believed and obey Jesus and witness the 1st miracle Jesus performed.

Think about this:
The servants believed first by filling the jars with water and serving the guests, that's when they witnessed a miracle. Thus, it is believing first, then miracle will follow. If the servants were to see that Jesus had power to turn water into wine then they are willing to fill the jars(miracle), nothing will happen.

John 20:29
Then Jesus told him, "Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed."

Christmas

Thanksgiving items not in order

1.) God found me when i am not looking for him and he brought me to the navigators.
-- What is a disciple, not a sunday-christian
-- Found the real joy of knowing Jesus
-- True meaning of salvation, relationship with jesus
-- Assurance of Salvation (No assurance before this)

2.) Brothers around me, great fellowship, always there for me. Really give thanks to the Lord for VL and See Guan.
-- How they have set a good example for me
-- How they have guided me
-- How they have taught me many many things. Be it big or small
-- If See Guan is not in clubhouse most of the time, i doubt i will be there much as well
-- Challenged by Vl & Yang Kui about how they gave their very all to God

3.) How God answered my prayer regarding bringing 1 person to christ by the end of this year.
-- I really enjoyed the process of God drawing Howard to his side, how he creates situations for me as well
-- The joy to see how he grew little by little in his salvation.

4.) How God also draws other friends closer to him.-- Making the meeting of some friends to share gospel possible. A lot of doubts at that time.

5.) God allows me to join for QT sharing during attachment.

6.) God for providing me the chance to witness in campus, for there are so many words at my mouth.

7.) God provides me with the privilege to serve the ministry. Indeed the one who serves is more blessed then the one who is being served.

8.) God brought Phi 3:7-8 to life as i personally experience it. How i joyfully gave up things to grow in the Lord. Dragonboat, gym, kick the addiction of games.
-- I thank God for this freedom i have now, nothing to hold me back.
-- And also how VL has always been by my side, his presence is enough to comfort me and i know he definitely been through much more pain then me. So really thankful how God provide me with the strength.

9.) Many incident at how God hears me and uses people to speak to me. -- One incident is how after exam, i went back to clubhouse. In the past, i will just go out and play with friends after exam. Somehow i went back to clubhouse to do the usual stuff but somehow i still "crave" for going out and relax and rest. I do not have any desire to play, watch movie or hang out with friends but just feel like "be at town" (Duno why). Anyway somehow VL was going to town to fix his phone so he brought me along as well. He too mentioned how God prompted him to bring me. So really praise and thank the Lord.

10.) How my family attended 24th Dec 2008 Christmas Eve Celebration.

But the main thanksgiving item is about how God gave us his son, Jesus. His grace, mercy and his love. And also how God gives me the heart, love and desire to serve him. For everything good comes from above.

Praise the Lord

Christmas Approaching

Christmas is a day of joy, thanksgiving and giving of present.

People rejoyce, exchange presents, celebrating this joyous day...
But forgot the one and only most precious gift.

Baby Jesus

Matthew 1:21
She will give birth to a son, and you are to give him the name Jesus, because he will save his people from their sins.

Baptist Youth Leader Camp 2008.. cont

I forgot the most important thing about this camp, to praise God for everything. Thank You for providing such an excellent worhship team which really stirred up my heart and the main thing - You word which strike Fire in my heart.

Luke 24:32
..."Were not our hearts burning within us while he talked with us on the road and opened the Scriptures to us?"

Today's quiet time
2 Timothy 1:6-7
For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands. For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.

Sensitive to others

I have to be sensitive to what i say when i share, for any wrong words can easily affect the entire ministry.

Colossians 4:6
Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone.

Calling...

Tomorrow is Annual General Meeting 2008. I am given a post by my leader in Ngee Ann Navigator. I know i don't deserve it, but i am sure God give me this role to train and mold me.

I am convinced of my calling.

Remind myself it is not how good i am that i am here, but it is entirely by God's grace, for i am the least to have that role. I am the worst out of the worst.. I know it deep in my heart. How i dun deserve his grace.

Unfaithful Servant

14/12/07.. I remembered that's the first time i confess to my ex. I can't remember how it happened, how i confess or so.. It been at least 6months, when i thought i am over it, it kept coming back. These past few nights had been "not very good..." This morning on the bus to school, i was thinking of those good times and at the same time, casting all my "anger" on God.. That's when i nearly teared as i was really touched by his grace and his love... All the while i had been so unfaithful to him, even grumbling to him yet he provided a way out for me.. By placing such a wonder brother always by my side, who had been through more what i experience.

Baptist Youth Leader Camp 2008

8th to 11th Dec 2008 - Baptist Youth Leaders Camp 2008

I returned 1 day earlier as i have my last paper on 11th. The first time i heard of this camp, i doubted that it will teach me anything. I went with a heart to learn, but not from the message but from the actions of others and to see how God works. Ironically, i learnt the most from the messages. The messages were so excellent, not because he is good with his speech and knowledge (although he is..), but i believe it is because the Holy Spirit revealed to him the key essentials in the message that will allows God to straight fire in my heart. The only bad thing about this camp is that there are so many, so many lessons which God had impressed on my heart that i only focus and meditated on the night sermon.

A few key thoughts

-The greatest gift for others is prayer, alonging with fasting. Not because it is "something" if i do, God will grant me a "wish" or as a practise... But it is actually a reminder to pray as the flesh is weak, trusting in God fully and the most importance, dependence on God

-Was challenged to do my QT although no one did in my room. That's the really difficulty part.

-I had been considered the "quiet" person as i didn't talk and only introduced myself with a few sentences in the small group settings. Not because i am a quiet and humble person who do not want to boast about myself. Instead, it is a matter of pride issue, silent when i should not be is a hidden sin.



1 Samuel 3:10
The LORD came and stood there, calling as at the other times, "Samuel! Samuel!" Then Samuel said, "Speak, for your servant is listening."

Convicted on the spot, here i am O' Lord.

I know this is not just another "event" or "revival" where i get spirtually high for a few days and died off after a few weeks. For one thing i am sure of is that, my spirtually life is not based on emotions but on truth.

Hebrews 12:29
..for our "God is a consuming fire."

2 Timothy 1:6
For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands.

Deceitful Heart

Jeremiah 17:9
The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?

I have no idea what i am thinking, what are my thoughts - where i can't even tell my emotions anymore. I can never understand what is my heart thinking. What seems good on the surface, i doubt in the heart, there is anything good.

Planning is tough.

I know God looks into my heart, therefor my conscious is clear before God that i did my very best, putting in every effort i have. However, I am disappointed that things did not turn out as fun.

I overlooked many things, and the Lord taught me that planning for something is never easy. Every 1 slide which lasted 5 seconds is the hard work of at least 10minutes behind the scene. Through this lesson, i really learn to appreciate everything my brothers and sisters had planned.

I admit that i am really tired, both physically and spiritually..

Isaiah 40:31
but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Renew my strength once again.